ela's story

2010-10-14T05:02:00.000-07:00

baby ure the best i ever had:)

2010-09-25T04:28:00.000-07:00

i am too mad with myself n u.
when things are as bad as it is, i dunt see a reason to make it any worse.
to understand ur situation n put u above myself is too much for me to do.
n i have done the best i can.

enduring with ur nonsensical demands is never enough for u.

just how much i love u. i had to endure this bad.

fcuk my life!

2010-09-16T08:22:00.000-07:00

Firstly of all, i wanna wish to all my dearest muslim frens Selamat Hari Raye.
If there is any wrongdoings i made i would like to seek forgiveness:)
Hari Raye wasn a blast one as i expected....
Its rather boring.

N lastly, my beloved bf, ullie has gone to serve his army.
oh myy. i will miss him. fcuk, 2 weeks seem like ages.
e time is moving rather slow to me..
i hope he is duing well. sleep well. eat well.
just hopefully he will be good:'(
manage to be by his side till tekong.
i can sense he is reluctant to go. but with e motivation from his family n me.
we all send him. he is good:)

2010-08-17T04:39:00.001-07:00

hello earthlings:)

its been last ages since i post a decent one. hahaa.
working has taken almost all my time.
n when im free, i will be spending it with my love ones.
precisely what stopping me from updating is due to my silly lappie.
a few words on e keyboard is unable to be used since last month.
n im having a lot of difficulty trying to copy paste. pffts.

The purpose of me updating now since im at work.
i shall update using my break time.
just finish break fast. oh wells, happy fasting to everyone:)

last few weeks or months i doubts, i had a one helluva drama.
which is forgiven but not forgotten.
im not blaming anyone, but its just not nice to feel cheated by love ones.
furthermore, the others is aware. i abhor of this situation.
perhaps, life is demanding and full or pros and cons.
it did shaken me up, but still, i chose this path as i believe it will change to a beautiful path.

Life is a test whereas we test every individual of others.
To see if they were the real among the rest.
Or to see if they were the rest among the beast.
:)

Soon it shall mark my 2 year aniversary.
I believe, it wasnt an easy path for both myself n him.
Therefore, we believe trust and honest is the key to our success relationship.
I would be lying if im to boast on how honest n modest my other half is.
Honestly, i fear of heartbreaks and ugly truth.
Perhaps, it could be my luck to see the truth now then later.
I still do love u boy:)

oh yes, jus saw a disgusting status on someone fb.
in an open relationship with another woman?
when u r like 3 or 4 years together with someone.hmmmm.
Oh wells, just ur lucks to "someone" cause u r not on good terms with both me n my half.
hehehe:)

so we shall pretends things were goooood:)
karma is knocking on ur dooor bby:)

2010-07-19T04:00:00.000-07:00

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie

2010-07-14T18:23:00.000-07:00

matter of facts, im annoyed since yesterday night.
the fact we r close at 9.30.
some irresponsible customers decide to partronise at the shop.
though u have the money, HELLO!
we have our responsibilities after work.or perhaps plan thenn.
afterall, this ppl has a little of conscience in within them.
so they sat till past 12.fark kann?

2010-07-12T09:11:00.000-07:00

wanna go bowling again.....(:

dragg the fact i weigh myself. n im devastated.
the truth is uglier than the lies. damnnn.
i wish, i am not that fat. fark.

i need fat loose.zzz

2010-07-07T08:49:00.000-07:00

"i used to have u as my pillar.now, i am on my own."

if to love u has to cause a downturn of the whole world against me.
i rather not to pursue on my only lifeless hope.
but to see u tear down, n yearning me all over again.
i decided to let my fate decide its ends.

2010-07-03T06:41:00.000-07:00

FML.im rotting at home on saturday.
n i miss my long hair.isshk!

2010-07-03T03:32:00.000-07:00

it was merely 2 weeks i began my new job && a new job called me up.

therefore, i hope this shall be my job for the next 3 years?hahs.break a leg!

september is drawing nearer. i shall miss u so much boy.

lets make this last. ok kental!-.-

im home on saturday night.as i am broke.
rabbit has went out for karaoke session i think???
what a hectic morning today. too much too learn in a short notice.
i need hair cut n perhaps with colours!hehehe.
a new begin:)

i shall pursue myself to exercise tonight:)

2010-06-25T21:36:00.000-07:00

sneezing once i woke up. all hail to my mum's spring cleaning on my off day!
its my off day, n im planning to just rott:)
annoyed with the fact that my phone kept ringing.
one after another. i need sleep.
i have 101 things to be done during this day, but
1st of the list, is to sleep, n its taking the whole day.zzz
so how to be done with the rest.

both ryann n danny not to be seen at home.
fcuk! i miss them!where are u both!!!zzzz!

oh plss. do act like your age, not the size of your shoe:)

2010-06-15T06:15:00.000-07:00

the thoughts of waffle with strawberry can make me drool.cb.
im reluctant to have any meals now as to start my diet plan.
but the fact that i am hungry, i cant stop thinking abt foood now.grr.

im sorry rabbit for being mean to u jus now.
i believe that u are trying hard to prove my worth.
but try harder to prove ur worth now. haha.

my blog is filled with pics like the tumblr usually have.
well bear with me. i have not been gg out.
cooped up at home. well, im broke wat to do.
when im broke, rabbit pun broke. hahs.
perhaps, if he is reading this, pls do bring me out this weekends:)

2010-06-14T07:03:00.000-07:00

being jobless aint helping me much.
the priviliges of having my space are reducing.due to me being moneyless.fcuk.
i craving to party hard. since my last was like eons.
but this time i shall not drag my rabbit along.he is a pain in the ass.
we never get to party due to his mat-rep face.blearghh.
i shall party alone then baby :)

im cutting my hair again.n perhaps colour a few strands of blonde.
godd.i have no idea where am i getting the money to do those.zzzz
i need to DIET. for real. as i have been taking unwanted junks everyday.
which result me of being fat than my usual.hehs.

2010-06-13T23:14:00.000-07:00

Ive been laying dead emotionally for hours.
Wonder, how u could move on without difficulties.
But it seem im gasping for air though im all alone in a wide space.

2010-06-13T22:11:00.000-07:00

when trust is treated like a toy.
i wish i was lying next to u.
not asleep.But dead.

2010-06-06T06:00:00.000-07:00

being jobless is not nice.
adding to me being broke and being fined.
oh my. i need to break loose.zzzz

2010-05-28T02:55:00.001-07:00

they might say hi.
i might say hey.
but u shouldnt worry about what they say
cause they got nothing on you baby=))

2010-05-27T05:35:00.000-07:00

is this what i long for?i sit n shake my leg wondering if this was what i had plan.
damn, it seem weird. Knowing that this was what i long for.
n it didnt turn out great.i feel shit.
i cant be bother with things circulating around me.
from good to bad. i am not slight amazed.
i just wanna put aside all my never-ending misery n try to cheer up.

2010-05-24T10:20:00.000-07:00

i shall have it much shorter since its growing too fast.
so sexcited.
after a hectic week.finally an off day.
shall go for an interview.
off to meet my dearest KS.
n off to a date with my sexy boy.

2010-05-16T20:16:00.000-07:00

tml mark my 1st day.
oh pls be nice.
else i will cry.

2010-05-14T06:31:00.000-07:00

i have eating disorder.
i need to lose weight.
everybody saying im fat, tembam, semangat n etc.
im upset.i jus wanna eat happily.

2010-05-13T06:42:00.000-07:00

Though how bad we quarrel. i am bless to be standing here with u all this while.
Cause no man can endure me the way u do and no man can love me the way u had.

Baby, i love u.

2010-05-13T06:22:00.000-07:00

yesterday wasnt a wasted night as i had expected.
with the whole lots of them i am a happy kid.
finally after e whole lot of drama i had this past few weeks.
yesterday was well paid off.
sessunguhnye my bf knows me the best that i need sumting to vent off my sadness.

now i am sick-.-
i shall have a good rest=))

2010-05-11T05:20:00.000-07:00

a later end with a new begins doesnt means im too late.

i had to start a new beginning in my life.
now, my life revolve with things i will get bored soon.
for the mean time enjoy for all i care=))

2010-05-11T05:05:00.001-07:00

finally a short hair=))

happie=))

2010-05-10T21:50:00.000-07:00

through thick n thins im with u,
i wonder how will it be if u cheated on me one day?

2010-05-10T07:46:00.000-07:00

off shoulders n vodka do the tricks=))

2010-05-04T06:40:00.000-07:00

great trips to KL with dearest n all.
i must say though there is bad times.
definitely, there is good times=))

2010-05-03T00:27:00.000-07:00

im upset with evriting.dissapointed with u.
sitting here all alone at dearest hs got me thinking hw life can be so fragile to ones.
how each of us in this world relies on one another for support.
how ugly truth can be than lies.
how i hate to be the last to know, but i was the 1st.
how i dislike to hold such a big burden of truth on my head.
u r the one which got me going through life, n u simply dissapoint me.
a single statement has causes a turnover in my life now.
n when i became a bad girl, tell me.
who is to be blame?
U!

2010-04-28T08:20:00.000-07:00

pardon my fat thighs-.-

i will be away for a short get away trips with beloved
this friday n leaving my precious smelly bf here.
bby, do behave ehk=))

blardy!since i received the news sab gg ns soon.
sungguh buat i n ullie serammm.fark.
i dunt want to be seperated lar.cbs.
y must boy go ns ar?grrr.
now ullie n myself awaiting for any ns letter=((
lets hope ullie takya gie ns lar k?amin.
irrits btol ela doa mcm nie.hahah.

ok now i shall sleep.sungguh penat.
hopefully tml i get to go school at 9am again.
feeling so content=))

2010-04-27T22:12:00.000-07:00

to kill the boredom im having.
stumbled upon an advertisement of cheese on the tv.
and i give it a shot!sungguh sedap!
=)))

2010-04-27T20:44:00.000-07:00

finally i realise, year 3 i have no hols.CIBAI!

on a lighter note, finally todae i made it to my 9am classes.
*clap hands*
now im rotting from 1pm till 3pm for my next class

shall i skipped it?

2010-04-21T11:08:00.000-07:00

lets scratch head n wonder to ourselves.
there are ppls around us,
claiming others are hypocrite when they themselves are one?
contradicting i must say.
but wart to do, there lives this kind of ppl among us.
so we have to be wary as they might jus be someone close to us=))

yesterday was a history, tomorrow is a mystery.
today is a gift therefore they say its a present=))

2010-04-21T00:34:00.000-07:00

dammit ryann is sick.
home so quiet when he is sick.

2010-04-20T10:21:00.000-07:00

call me old fashion or wartever.i adores him!!!

2010-04-19T08:15:00.000-07:00

not crying infront of u.doesnt mean im ok.
being urself, throwing silly antics to make me cheer up.
ive love u so much i must say.
but there is alwes a peak point whereas i need to lay my head down.
not giving up, jus having a rest.
if u could read my heart, u will be crying now.
it bleeds to see how much our love has nurture this long
n yet u still hold back on sumting i never expected.
i have to agree with the says "expect the unexpected"
it caught me by surprised.
u claimed, im ur past,present n future.
so y the hold back?
pardon my worst imagination.
a picture speaks a thousand meaning.

im expecting for more.
i shall awaits.

2010-04-19T01:15:00.000-07:00

school is burden to me now.
no more a bitch or a whore.but a burden im carrying.
im feeling sober all thanks to my monday blues.
expecting the best was the least i should do.
cause it wont turn out well.

anw, some random human is chatting with me.
after so long.finally ye.

2010-04-18T09:45:00.000-07:00

SCHOOL in HOLIDAY out.

sungguh kental sumpah!

jus hang up on the phone with ullie.

n he farking not gg to send me to sch tml.

work is being a lil bitchy with the polluted surrounding im having.
i need pesticide to brush them away.hahhaa.

im having monday blues.
drag to go sch tml.noeing e fact, this sem is a BABS for me.
lets not talk abt this sem.i shall work my ass off kononnye.
hahhaa.make new frens again.haiz.

ok dats all.

goodnytes!

2010-04-17T01:14:00.000-07:00

hello.

since im not yet asleep i decided to update my fuggly dusty blog.
went sheesha with my sexy bf yesterday after work.
super tired i must say.
indeed a heaven to have him to say ntgs but sweet words to my ear.
school is reopening soon.im not looking forward to it.farker.
i wanna be a dropout bole?siak2.

the thought of waking up at 7am makes my stomache weak.
n to make matter worst, my dearest bf is no longer sending n fetching me.
as he has end sch n now working full time.
so yes, ela kene independent ehk!

speaking of my mischevious bf, above pics was taken when he met up with his frens.
n later part of the night he went club w/o me but with his cuz.
sesungguhnye im irritated.hahaha.
n wen its my turn to go on wed,
suting had to cropped up.
nvm, i shall have a taste of fun soon again.

ive been insanely reading mens are from mars n womens are from venus.
i must say the book is a good one.
secretly, ullie is reading too.n he agree with john gray.
impressively, we are duing much better.

in fact, im having the same interest as him now.
a little of sacrifice doesnt hurt to drew ur loves closer=))

2010-04-05T07:44:00.001-07:00

i checked my sup result n i flunked.

it realli ruin my day which is already worse.

i am looking forward for today as its my off day.
but tings wasnt as good as i expected bkos,
once i wake up i realise ive caught a bad cold.
all hail to ullie for spreading his cold to me.
im honoured baby.

2010-03-31T05:58:00.000-07:00

finally i manage to chop off my hair.
i do feel light afterall.sadly, it wasnt as short as i wanted.
all thanx to annie.she stop the hairstylist from cutting any shorter.
haiz.i dunt feel sad cutting my hair off.as i need short hair=))

its been eons ive update my blog.
i had quality time spent with my grandfather,ullie and munie and her bf.
hahhaa.

ive ntg to update now.i shall continue with my crunches=((

2010-03-25T11:24:00.000-07:00

i need happy pills.

2010-03-16T04:58:00.000-07:00

jus ended a fight with him which last a day.
the fact that we both is alwes on loggerhead.
we still reconcile.
we knew each other too well to even entertain when one is mad.

i love u bby.

on a lighter note.
u ppl can assume, predict, says ntg-good abt me.
the fact was i am angry.very indeed.
but i am too busy to entertain ppl one of a kind like u.

ok bye.

2010-03-13T00:43:00.000-08:00

one helluva drama week i had.
things jus went haywire for me.
1. im a bad daughter.
resolution: wont make my parents cry again.n behave myself.
2. school is a whore for me.
resolution: i shall make it my bestfriends now.
3. im alwes broke.
resolution: saveee!!!

it will be a list if i start typing here.
watever it is.this is my resolution for the month.
hopefully the whole year.

i was expecting bad news from my school.
when results were out yest.
gpa was a bitch. yet i manage to survive to year3.
hahhaa. i flunked 2 of my so-called impt subject.
attendance was bad.so i was failed.
n it was a miracle i was given a supp paper.
yessss! im goonaa mugg soon.

today is sat n im rotting at home.
went to bf hs earlier on to clean his ugly wounds.
get well soon bby.i love u wabbit=))

i shall sleep now.since its going to rain soon.
i shall not waste the nice weather rotting infront of my lappie.

BYE!

oh yess,i miss anak m.ezar=))

2010-03-09T18:30:00.000-08:00

i miss ur presence now n then.
ure jus to busy nowadays.

2010-03-07T05:10:00.000-08:00

yesterday was a nightmare.
today was a bliss.
tomorrow will be a surprise that awaits for me.

2010-03-05T18:05:00.000-08:00

i want to prove how worthy i am to u.
but to hear those comments.
i just cunt breathe to think straight.

2010-03-03T08:13:00.000-08:00

your world is my world.

my fight is your fight

my breath is your breath.
And your heart.

i love Justin Bieber!!!

2010-02-28T19:16:00.000-08:00

its suppose to OUR date.
but he decided to date with his FRENS.

dunt talk to me.
cause i dunt love u no more-.-

2010-02-24T19:57:00.000-08:00

im stucked at home during my off day.
baby is off to work till night.sedih-.-
sumting funny happen at work yest.

ang moh man cum to me to ask for directory i guess so.

ang moh:miss u noe where is airpord?
me: u mean airport?
ang moh: yeah.u noe where?
me: changi sir.not here.
ang moh: no2!not that.* showing me an aeroplane signal flying*
me: then??
ang moh: u dunnoe what is airpord?
me: hmmm.....
ang moh: u dunt have airpord?
me: me have?no.
ang moh: how cum u dunt have airpord?* pointing fingers into his ear*
me: ohhh u mean i-pod?
ang moh: yes2. airpord!

mcm kanasai nie orang!-.-

2010-02-22T03:32:00.000-08:00

date with him.

On him.
Good hair cut.

i love u bby.

2010-02-18T04:26:00.000-08:00

its nearly 9pm.n my favourite boy is not yet back.
*shake head* mane aje die gie ehk?hahaa.
my family is having a chalet tml to celebrate my nephew ryann 1st birthday.
i am not excited as my favourite boy is not cuming.
tml we will be getting the birthday boy his gifts=)hahaha.

i was rotting at home the whole day.
sleeping thruought the morning n back to the afternoon again.
happy girl.

some ppl jus cunt stick their nose to themselves.
and alwes causing a stir out of nowhere.
bodoh.

while there are others who proclaims that
they regrets after what had happen blar blar blar.
and secretly u began with another?aduhai.
contradicting kepe?

sungguh tak perlu ehk org2 nie.

anw have a great day ahead=)
im in love with this song....

2010-02-17T05:27:00.000-08:00

its only less than 6 hrs before my last post n im posting another entries.
bf met me awhile jus now before he rush to jb with his brother.
i was elated to see my baby new hair cut.finally!no more mat malaysia.
back to the bad boy looks=)

ok he will be back tml.rindduuuu die!

2010-02-16T22:37:00.000-08:00

currently over at dearest house.planless.

ditched school today due to my bad sleeping habits.
damn my hardwork is a totally wasted.
im woried if im fated to be like dearest at the end of the day.

been yearning for it and now it drawing nearer, im scared.

i am waiting for bf to reached here
than i shall go off for some girl session with my best.
its a heart-warming to have dearest to rely on whenever im alone.
who need tons of frens who is good at betraying-backstabbing blarr2.

when i have her to fall back on.thumbs up=)

baby,u need a haircut.that is not an option for u to choose but an errand.
i badly want ur sexy looks=)hehehhee.
bf will be going to jb later .mendak peh wednesday.

ok bye.

2010-02-13T18:12:00.001-08:00

Look into my heart saying, for my hearts speak the truth. I love u.
Happy Valentine Day

2010-02-11T08:53:00.000-08:00

im content that whenever the whole world turn their backs on me
or when everything isnt going the right way.
i have 2 person to fall back on.
i miss u munnie and definitely bf.

2010-02-09T18:24:00.000-08:00

its ridiculous to even start typing here.
im just thrashing out a few thought n feeling here.
bf n myself have been craving that we can be as normal again.

its ridiculous when u start poking into our r'ship
and start to claim all those negative comment.
it breaks the hell out of me to say out all this.

when tings are going better for me n him.
things that are exterior to my r'ship have to occurs.
i wanna be with my beloved bf thats all.

baby,i nak bear=)

2010-02-09T06:54:00.000-08:00

cutting myself out of anger

2010-02-05T08:32:00.000-08:00

baby,come back quick.ive started to miss u now.
he is away to jb to do his bike for a day.
will be back tml.i shall patiently wait.

i farking cannot endure the unwanted nagging.
pointing fingers is not my game.
silence do not mean i lose.
i just cunt be bother with the talks u are giving.
cause its either ure helping here or u r jus wrecking up us.
i have my final say.i still love ullie.n he is the best.

just received a call from him.
to say our everyday goodnight wishes.
"goodnite,sleeptite,sweet dreams,tc,miss u much2,love u lots2.
mwahmwahmwahmwahmwah"
its been 18 months n its till the same=)
even our family has memorised the phrases.

i shall sleep now=)

2010-02-03T19:13:00.000-08:00

it was one helluva roller coaster ride for me.after enduring a week of truth.
finally im letting it out here.

it had been rather dull for me to keep crying n pretend truth wasnt the least i expected.
yet it hit me like a lightning.unprepared.finally i was devastated.
it was then i realise u were the one i crave for everynight.
n i was the one u yearn to kiss every secs.
"Consider how hard it is to change yourself and
you'll understand what little chance you have in trying to change others"
it shall take times.but im willing to wait.
how i wish i was ur addiction n i was the dosage u need to calm urself
still i love u.

our love was true a drama which others finds a bore.
trust me baby,they never will noe.though how much they try.
a matter of time, it will be their turns=)

I dunt need someone to judge on my r'ship.
including my bf looks=)
how fugly that one person could be,u do not start judging.
cause when u start, u will then look worse.

frens do not keep secret if u treat the other party a true frens.
it hit me a bomb, to even start ranting abt this.
proclaim that its a secret n u reveal it 1 year later.
its not sumting nice=)
i had rather u keep it then telling.
not that i do not appreciate the truth which im aware of.
but if u truly treat me as a fren,will u even keep it a secret
knowing my r'ship was 2 months olds at that point of time?
u shuld have told me at that time.or u just shut up.
cause 1 year later is too long for the secret to be reveal.
n were u a fren not asking me how am i doing?
when u knew the truth was a nightmare to me.
n when u read this,dont start to feel angry or watever.
cause im done with all the drama.

im sorry baby if my attitude was sucks yest.
eventually i let my anger control the best out of me.
truth is,u were at fault.so diam2 kene marah=)
nyahahhaha.

though party was cancel yest..
i still had a piece of mind far away with laughters fill up the air.

ok this is random,but i cunt help to resist squeezing baby nipple
whenever he rides the bike.cause i adore=)nyahahhaa.

2010-02-02T18:39:00.000-08:00

"Consider how hard it is to change yourself

and you'll understand what little chance you have in trying to change others."
Jacob M Braude

2010-01-28T07:57:00.000-08:00

I gave you all you desired
All that you needed
Boy I provided
I let you into my head into my bed
And that’s a privilege
I had your back in the answers
You took the dollars
I took the chances
Defended battled and fought
Cause I really thought you loved me

I don’t know where to start or where to stop (No)
But I know I am done I’ve had enough

So fall, out of my head out of my heart
And when you hit the ground
You’ll be sorry that I’m not around
I will watch while you
Fall out of your mind out of your fantasy
When you hit the wall think of me
I’ll be on the top just watching you fall

You said that you were the strong one
I was the girl and I was the young one
I kept your feet on the ground
My head in the rounds, I had you
You told me you were so grateful
I was with you and I was so faithfulI stood by in all that you said
And all that you dared, I loved you

i wanna be alone for now.im good.

2010-01-26T08:55:00.000-08:00

just do compare his old face n his current in my earlier post.
SO MUCH DIFFERENCE!
hahahaha.
was just checking n my sister was commenting on how difference this boy looks.
baby,u really need a make over!-.-
this 2 pics are the long2 tyme pics i snap with him.

no wories.i still love u!

2010-01-26T08:06:00.000-08:00

went to sch at 4pm.ullie,bfku yang tersyg sekali fetched me at 6pm.haha
we did not went straight home.instead we went somewhere to relax our minds.
nah not my mind actually.mostly is his.hahaha.
it felt quite sometime i had not had a long session n chat wif bf peacefully.
sayang die.it was indeed relaxing.
bby,i love u ok gemok.

die plak complain kate"b,da mcm mat rep plak i nie kan?shit!"

baru die tau-.-

die plak kacau aku-.-
trying to tell me how fugly my body were-.-
i dunt care lar kan.hahaha.
im happie.(u can see from my happie face)

his bike=)

"u definitely need a haircuts!"

n so he agree=)

"mcm mat malaysia plak-.-"

bby.i still love u.
short,long,botak hair.
fat or thin.
fair or dark.
u will alwes be my last=)

the fourth book=)

i wanna b positive thinking like Bella.
i want a bf who loves me like Edward.
willingly sacrifice aniting for me like Jacobs.

ok bye=)

2010-01-25T08:58:00.000-08:00

y do i feel as if if the whole worlds turns their back on me?
y do i feel that everybody hates me?
y do i feel i was not wanted here?

fark u.

2010-01-24T19:18:00.000-08:00

a very good morning to all.woke up at 7.30.
my sis aje yang tau how draggy i was to drag my butts to the toilet.
my mum aje tau how draggy i was to get out of the house.
it was a draggy day for me today.in fact its monday todae.
im having monday's blues....errrghhh.
ullie just have to bug me when
he was not yet awake by 8.30 when im supposed to reach school at 9am.
baeekkkk.finally i manage to get him out of house chun2 at 9am.
n reached at 9 plus.yesss=)

drag the fact i have to carry around the whole school with a helmet.
mcm aku yang bwk motor-.-
i must compromise dgn die lar kan-.-....!

now im having my free time at school till 2pm.
down with an assignment.im a happie girl=)
i was startled to be reminded about
some of my subject that need to be finished to graduate on time.

ohhh....i must be well behaved.else graduate 4.1 sudah!

i am dead bored now.dead gile.
bf called me up yest to tell me.
"i will be working on valentine days"
baekkkk.

i shalll rot again.

still i love u.

oh did i blog about ryann being hospitalized?hmmmm!
yes he was.because he fell down from my bed when he sleep.
nose bleed.rushed to hospital.1 day hospitalized teros doctor instruct to go home.
because he is too noisy lar.he is not in the condition to be hospitalized.
ryann strong gile.hahaha.

ok bye!

2010-01-23T07:35:00.000-08:00

just came back from bf's house.
after werk, a surprised fetching-session by bf.
drag me to his house pasal ade kenduri.
a heart warming welcome i had by his relatives.
definitely i had met his family.its just the relatives ive not.
thus it was good to meet them jus now.not that bad=)
i feel good.hahhaa.

i shall sleep now.
too tired to type more.
goodnytes.

2010-01-19T16:17:00.000-08:00

it seems like eons ive not update aniting.
simply i have no idea how to begin with this post.
it was a helluva dramatic weeks for me.

firstly,i had problems with my workplace.
i shall work my ass of till end of this month,n i shall say go.
some ppl jus cunt be realistic n be truthful to themselves.
instead they chose to be denial which leads to sarcasm.
causes me to bleed in tears.nevertheless,im standing strong.
i shall assume this is bits n parcel of life.
kate makan gaji mah=)

secondly, i have been skipping school.alot of times.
due to lateness and oso due to me being just plainly lazy.
i was as lazy as sesiape2 lar dlm dunie ini.
i will just wait till my bf wakes up n i will go school together with him.
n once i reach school.i will wait for bf to end school.then i shall tag home with him.
simply jus to take bike to school.haiz.
pemalas sungguh aku nie-.-
for example,today i woke at 10am.waited for bf to wake up.
send me to school.reached at 1plus.class start at 2pm till 6pm.
bf ends at 3.then i quickly cabot from class jus to go home with him.
hahahhaha!perangai.1 hr lesson!hahahhaa.ela so manje!menyampah!

ouh randomly i chatted with a fren of mine yesterdae.
im happie for u!i wanna be the bridesmaid!nyahhahaha!

n for my relationship with this bf of mine.
hmmm....
mcm biase ajelar.hahhaa.
arguements are simply normal dosage to us.
we manage to conclude that arguements
will jus drew us closer n knew each other better.
crapz!sakit kan ati aku ade lar.hahhaa.
well there is a saying,
"the one u love so much is the one who can break ur heart easily."

n yesterdae we were talking otp about other ppl relationship.
for instance some ppl do have a great r'ship.really gooooood
name it?dating everyday?to nice place?
getting present selalu?celebrate anniversary in a nice fancy place?
no worries of money to eat or gg out?
they themselves being so rich?no need to work?
owns a car?club almost evridae?
n lastly broke wasnt even in their category.
my bf n myself are on the other category.
whereas wart they need not worry shall be our worries.
we will be happie with a simple outings which occurs at random times.
simple dining.realli simple.
i am not jeles of others.well its their fate to meet their partners.
but hereby me n bf path have cross to meet each other.
n we have gone tru alots of shit u guys can never imagine.
i love him so much that break ups will be the last i want to do on earth.
i love him for being a honest man who earns money to bear his others responsibility.
i love him for being a simple man whose personality dont bother others.
i love him for not being the well known to others.hahaha
i love him for being patience with all the obstacles he had to faced.
i love him for not being so cautious with his dress up.
i love him for just being himself.
i love u baby.i love u as u allows me to be part of ur little life.

ok so long my post.i shall go off now.goodnytes to all.
random pics i had a few days back.

dinner at newton.with KS Staffs

3 days n im done reading the book.mauut.suke i!hahaha

2010-01-13T05:19:00.000-08:00

ive yet to post a pic of my bf's beloved bike kononnyerlar kan-.-
amik tu!hahhaa.
ive just got a new hp=)yummy!
n i snap my bf face first.hahaha.syg gemok.

ok.i want more breakfast with u bby=)hahhaa.

2010-01-12T08:00:00.000-08:00

i was sick for 2 days.so i was dead on blog for 2 days-.-
im in love with my bf again.hahhaa.he is the sexiest creature on the world.
i wanna have cute babies with u bole?hehhee.ok2.must wait ye.hahhaa
now im awake but my eyes are drooopy.all thankx to the medication i took.
i shall jus sleep again later.hopefully tml will be alright.
btw ive self declared hols for me this 2 days=)...hahaa.

i was irritated by this guy on monday.sumpah he make me wanna slap him!

i miss munnie n sabri.ok sumpah random.
bile mau jumpe nie....-.-

2010-01-08T20:40:00.000-08:00

not evri ending of a rainbow has to beautiful.

2010-01-06T05:23:00.000-08:00

i jus read the newspaper.
the girl who was molested by that 4 bangla men.
my heart goes out for u.
i watch the video too being a singaporean.
i manage to get hold of it.
when i watch it.i wish i was there to wack that man.
sick or wart-.-grrrr.

2010-01-05T21:49:00.000-08:00

yellow is a happy colour.but me not happie-.-
silly me to befall for ur words.
i wish i was wise enough to make a right decision in future.

once bitten twice shy.me no shy.
bodoh kan-.-

2010-01-05T19:07:00.000-08:00

my hands look so fat-.-
i woke up at 9.45 am.LATE.totally lateness.
so semangat do my assignment for presentation.
n me being late.all thanx to ntar.hahhaa.
i slept at 4am yest.dat explain.
im not flirting or randomly duing sumting stupid.
but i was watching this!

MTV's 16 and Pregnant - MTV Shows

i effing CRIED lar watching this show.
sumpah its touch my heart.i cried.
u guys shuld watch it.seriusly.
jus spare ur time for 30 mins.seriusly it will make u CRIED.

ok bf left me n went to sch by himself.
sad?ntg surprise lar kan....
hmmm.

ok i shall go now.siap2 go sch for my next class at 2pm.pffts.

2010-01-05T08:26:00.000-08:00

Jus woke up from my early night sleep?does it sound right?mamposlar.
since my schedule was a hectic one.eventually after sch i will feel sleepy.
with bf to fetch me.i had no weries to reach home early n sleep peacefully.
instead of rushing in the bus evritime to get a seat n tdo.nyahaha.
im in midst of sasticfactory as one of my assignment is almost done.
all thanx to my sleepless nights.nyahaha.

since now im wide awake.done with a few of my assignments requirement.
little did i noe,my bf ku yang gemok tu TDO.hmmmph.
call up his house,n his brother stated he tdo mati.he keep complaining tired.
heehhee.i bet he is tired of sending n fetching me school evridae.
i love baby.

ok now i shall continue fb-ing.goodnytes.

2010-01-04T20:26:00.000-08:00

i dunnoe y i kept feeling uneasy.search me-.-
back to school since last week.one word for it = mendak.
ntg good or great abt sch.i dunnoe wat so happening going sch.
everybody seem excited excluding me.maybe ive lost it.
yes lost dat spirit of schoool.hmmmmm.....

i skip one of an important subject in school.3 times in a row.
i jus dunt feel like going.1stly,it alwes started tooo early,9am.
i cunt wake up.2ndly,i hate to be a new in a class.
3rdly,maybe dat will help me to be kicked out?hahaha.

maybe im jus having fun here.but well.
hopefully school will grant me a chance to retake that module.
hahaa.bf being such a sweetheart.
to make me go sch,he had to wake up to send me evridae.
he do grumble.but lets look on the bright side.
this will drew us closer....meekkkk.hahaha.
though ive paid for my blardy concessions.
i still resist to take bus.
im just tooo pemalas.label me dat.hahhaa.

now im school too early for my next class.
my 1st class suppose to start at 9am.but i skipped=.=
my next class is at 4pm.n now im in school rotting at 12pm.
blearghhh....wart shall i do!search me.

ok now i shall hit on the farking assignment.it makes me puke=.=

BODOH.

bye.

2010-01-03T08:02:00.001-08:00

after a weeks of using tumblr.i decided to be back here.
ok i noe i mcm irritating peh case.pardon me then.

weeks of arguing ended with hugs and kisses.
oh boy,u never fail to make me go heads over heels for u.
i swear i love u.

goodnytes.

2009-12-26T09:19:00.001-08:00

MOVED

http://elalalalaboom.tumblr.com/

2009-12-23T04:15:00.000-08:00

baby.pls behave urself todae.

dunt show any tantrums pls.
i wanna have a goodnyte todae.

2009-12-13T05:22:00.000-08:00

a funny incident happen when i brought danny to the toilet as he needs to urine.

i threw a tissue in the cubicle.

danny:tanter ela!y u throw dat in there?
me:nvm.
danny:u cannot throw there taw.u must throw here*pointing to the bin beside him"
me:ohk.
danny:now u say sorry!
me:to who?
danny:to the toilet!
me:laugh!hahhaha!

funny rite this ignorant 4 year old boy.
mcm nak tumbok aje die.hahaha

2009-12-10T07:38:00.000-08:00

it feel sucky to pretend im happie.wen im not.
it feel hurts to see myself enduring the pain n me not sharing to others.
my 1 year plus relationship has been my longest r'ship i had.
n im hoping it will last longer.amin.
i am definitely postively happie with my current lover.
he has been my drugs during my bad times.
i can never get enuf of him i swear.i love him so much.
we do have our ups n downs.during our bad times.
we will have too much unwanted drama.
but we alwes manage to reconcile within days or hours.
thats the paths of love lifes.
i will slog my heart out to do aniting for him.
i dunt fancy telling others my arguements with him.
cause i fear at the end of the day ppl will dislike him.
cause when im angry,definitely i will say bad tings abt him.hahhaa.

i cannot stand if ppl were to speaks ill of my bf.
reached home earlier on and my sis has to tell me someone say bad tings abt ullie.
gosssh.i am very angry with dat hamba allah.
steping mane peh kenal my bf.shit u.

ok i just wasted 5 mins of ur time reading my stupid entry abt my sexy bf.

the moral of the story is,i cunt stand ppl talk bad tings abt MY bf.

i love u syg.

2009-12-07T05:23:00.000-08:00

updated

http://everythingat10dollar.blogspot.com/

2009-12-01T08:09:00.000-08:00

i need those hug.badly.

2009-11-29T20:24:00.000-08:00

yes!last week of school before its officially a holiday for me.

i have the 3 weeks to sleep till the afternoon instead of waking up at 7am-.-

i shall turn up for school this whole stretch of week.hahaha.

the plans that has been made for the december will be a helluva fun.
i am so looking forward to it.hahhaa.

baby's new bike will be out soon.
so on the other hand i am belen2 happie.
as it will also benefits me in some ways.u shuld noe.hahaha

Selamat Hari Raya Haji to all.

its bad dat i cunt stay home on a good occasion with my family.

tsk.tsk.i have to work my ass off till late night.all hail to sales period now.
hahhaa.conclude the night with bf fethcing me n we had dinner over at tong seng.

eve of hari raye haji,i spent the day with bf's family.
accumpany his sister to get her psle result.
good job!hehehhe.i bet bf will have to treat her a hearty meal.hahaha.

im having a moodswing nowadays.

i dunt blame my periods.they are never part of my moodswings.
its alwes SOMEONE that will cause me to have moodswings.

hahaha.

Boo u SOMEONE.u alwes have to ruin my morning,days and nights.
just a matter of time if u repeat it again,i shall leave u.*winks2*

garang kan aku?hahhaa.wth!

ok bangs.i shall continue with my assignment.bye.

2009-11-16T19:03:00.000-08:00

It’s the simple things that you do, really hurt my feelings

The more I try, the more I’m starting to see it

This can’t work anymore, than you believe it

2009-11-15T07:52:00.000-08:00

im so happie todae.
work was great with great ppls.
i like!!!hahhaa.
in the middle of the day,i was upset with sumting.
n this kak shashan n kak henny decided to surprise me
with my all times faves cutex!!hahaha.
they alwes have some issue with the way i apply cutex on my nails.
n wenever i applied,it will just last for a day n soon all will start to chip off.
basically the reason was i dunt apply base n top coat.
sumpah i just find all those is a hassle.hahaha.
thus,this 2 sweetheart decide to get me base n top coat.hahaha.
n a new colour purple!

they even decided to apply for me.hahaha.
i feel the love.....!

ok now i shall sleep.goodnyte!

2009-11-14T07:33:00.000-08:00

just got back from werk n "aku sungguh penat seh!" mode.

went home with kak shan.bf tak fetch.sedih.
no msg or calls from him-.-
reached home n smells pizza.
bf decided to surprise me with pizza.but he has left.
leaving the pizza with my family.hahaa.
syg baby i!haha.

i had upload some of my dnd pics.
n not to forget my new wallet!
i like!!!!

im on diet now.

2009-11-13T10:00:00.000-08:00

a good friday for me todae.
eventually being an arse i skipped school today.
i cunt get my butts off the bed.
now as a result i cunt skip animore classes.double cb.

went off werk at 1 plus.
it was a great day for me at werk.suke aku.
n it was much greater at the later part of the night.
kos bf decided to have an early dinner n waited for me till i knock off werk.
happie2!kos eventually his werk has tied him up till he had no time for me.
n since todae is his off day,he did his part by fetching me.
syg u bnyk2.hahahaa.

im obsessed with this stupid mcdolnald's monopoly game.
sungguh cb.aku bole broke n gemok at the end of the day.
triple cb!

but i hope my sacrifices paid off well.amin.

ok i shall sleep now.

goodnytes.

i miss u baby.

2009-11-12T07:09:00.000-08:00

there is in fact more than this for my dnd.
but i had no mood to upload all.

jus merely woke up from my afternoon nap at 10.30pm.
i was hungry so i help myself to the food.
i tink kan the food has turn bad.
kos now my stomach hurt so badly.

i shall conclude with just this b4 i call it a day.

goodnytes

2009-11-08T08:59:00.000-08:00

stong girl dunt need boys to make them happy.
i used to be.but now he is my happy pills.

bottomline,i can never get over him.

2009-11-04T21:25:00.000-08:00

imma happie girl!
=)

2009-10-29T03:40:00.000-07:00

when drama is fill with too much thriller.
i wish i own a remote control to pause,rewind or forward the show.
cause this little heart of mine cant take that all.

toodles.

2009-10-28T06:04:00.000-07:00

dO VISIT!!!!!

EVERYTHING AT $10 ONLY!!!

2009-10-26T06:45:00.003-07:00

im half hearted happie n sad.ok im not content with myself since the saturdays.

i have been having those blues lately.all hail to the fever im having now.

it makes me feel so sick n tired.
i laze at home thruout my weekend except to meet syak on sunday.
afterall era m.i.a lar kan.hahhaa.

im blessed for this term as i only had 2 modules + 1repeat modules.

unlike others who have more=moree projects.

i have completed my cmsk assignment.now i can shake legs.no2.

i must seek advise from my teacher if its ok.yes2!

i skip class today.seriusly my flu is as bad as those leakage my school has in the toilet.

OUH yes!sumpah aku binget when dearest always ruin my plans!benciiii!

u shuld just pretend u dunnoe-.-

nehmind we will still have a great night*kening naek2*

my bf is rather a bitch nowadays.

i mean in terms of his attitude yang tak perlu suke menyakat aku.hahaha!

still i love him.

on the other hands of life,

drama is indeed a drama.

life still has to move on though ones falls.

ppls changes in a matter of time.

looks can rather be deceiving for ones to judge.

once bitten,twice shy.

i believe karma will knocks on theirs door.
its just a matter of time.

we shall just wait n see=)

sidetrack!syak!takmau lupe janji kau!!!!!

ok now i shall have good rest so i can go sch tml.

2009-10-19T23:34:00.001-07:00

spoken to my dear cp earlier on.
after those talk.little did i knew how i will be struggling for this sem.
ok no.it will be till i graduate i will be struggling like dog.
i cunt play animore.i have to study mcm mad dog.
else i will graduate later.tak suke ar nie.
i have so many tings at the back of my big head.
i just hope others will be a little thoughtful knowing its my farking 2nd year.
n i have many tings to juggle.i cunt tolerate anymore drama of urs.
i had my share of tears n im done here.
pardon if im losing touch with my dear frens.but yeah.
i had so many tings to settle b4 me graduate.
i cunt afford to fail any subject for now.

to whom it may concern:
ur drama is over for now.
i had my shareof tears.
let me sit n watch u cry.
earn the trust back if u want.
kos u dunt sweet talk here.but u r lieing tru ur teeth.
im done here n nnow.

toodles.

2009-10-19T07:45:00.000-07:00

its 10.45pm.damn!it seem ages ago i ever felt as shagged as today.
2 months of good holidays has make my eyes the suckiest of all for today.
it wasnt an easy task for me to rise up at 7am evridae.
as it is my last sem b4 i concludes it with and attachment(if im not mistaken)
since its monday,1st day of the semester,i wore yellow.
regret i didnt snap a photo.as i was damn bz getting along with new mates.
made a grand entrance at 9.20 when class started at 9am.baekkk.
i received a very warm welcome from this classmates of mine.
for now,i shall conclude that they r nice soul.amin.

i knew dat this semester will not be as easy as my previous sem.
i will be having almost 4 hrs for evri subject per day.
yeah.sooner pantat aku bole keras dekat kerusi.damn.
i cunt see myself going tru all this hardship.
i hate pressure.i hate stress.i hate projects.
next hols will be 7 weeks from today.i pray that this day will cum sooner.
ok now i shall start with my 1st assignment.
then i shall tdo mcm pig can?

toodles.

2009-10-17T07:12:00.000-07:00

im shaking leg.scratching head.
its a must for this year=)
december will be my best-est month.
n of kos i need a wallet with thick of money.
yeah!suke2.

ok bye!

2009-10-15T08:59:00.000-07:00

do u noe how it felt once u realise after all the fun-non-stop period is over.
u just realise that reality is a pain to swallow?
im feeling it now.i hate being the different among the rest.
i wanna be the same n be treated the same.
how i wish my cries can be heard all over the world.
i just wished my life aint as sober as this.

bye.

2009-10-15T01:06:00.000-07:00

a date out with my beloved bf n the afternoon.
met up yana n we had a meal along with a few inside jokes=)
had my sugar cane with sour plum is the best creation on earth.yeah!
im dragging to go werk tml.not due to the some reason with staffs or wart so ever.
it is becos my uniform have change.n i tak suke lar dey!grrr.mcm bardot!
yesterday wasnt my craziest nite afterall-.-
but having my best woman n man is enuf to make my day a blissful one. yeah.

i just had my share of roti boyan.cooked by beloved bf's mum.
bf was been extra sweet to help me attend to my nephew's ridiculous needs.

now i shall watch tv n perhaps sleep later.
the weather now is so moody.
make me wanna sleep=)

bye.

2009-10-12T05:21:00.000-07:00

picture is up!

raye with lovely girls.

bf did tag but he had to leave after hazar house.

due he had sumting on later part of the night-.-

it begin with my hs at 3pm.but all starkarat.

4pm then all reach=)

excluding palin n bf who reached earlier.yeah.

ullie the pimps.kononnye.

hazar n adi

esha n bf.

wait!ware the hell gambar palin snap with munnie?-.-

shit.i dunt have sia.hazar tak upload at fb plak.now ive to search high n low.grr.

ryann...
again ryann with palin
die lagi dgn esha.

the girls at my hs.

we girls at munnie hs.

hazar hs.sume bz makan.

me engrossed with my chicken. adi bz with his tauge-.-

yeah.bf left.so all of us fit in syamil's car.ouh u dunt wanna noe 7 ppl in a car=)

adi's hs.a great hs it is=)

this is us in adi's hs lift.yes a lift in his house=)

palin's house.last house of the day.

left us.heading home.camwhored a bit b4 all doze off=)

that's all ppl.my weekend is indeed a blast one.

i had my share of fun raya-ing with them.

since todae is mondae.n im trashing my time at home.

i bet ive gain a lot of weight todae.

ive been munching bende bkn2-.- ape2lar.

ok i dunnoe wart to type out.i shall stop here.

n proceed watching my marathon drama.

laguna beach(done)

the hills(processing)

well actually im done watching the show.but pasal boring gle babs.

i left with no choice to watch it=)hahaha

ok toodles.